I know what it is to keep it alive.

To sustain the process, the action, the thought.

I know the boundaries the limits of inactivity and denial - the essence of subjective drive and motivations.

Through a process of which my experiments are but taudry contrivances representing larger extended processes of interaction / reaction, living - I discover, explore and learn the hard and the soft confines of both my subjective consciousness and the shared consciousness that is the context, the confines of my activities/actions/interactions whether that is an interpersonal, social, political, professional, cultural or nationalistic. I am attuned intuitively at this point with the limits of communication, of interaction - matured in my sense and senses through experimentation.

Every day is challenging process of maintenance, exploration, a process of understanding that requires discipline, focus, patience, engagement. Every morning, afternoon and evening I must attend to my children, the needs of my wife, my life. I must feed my cat in the morning and again in the evening.

And every night I feed my fish.